There simply are no words...

This has been a long, time for me...  Last Wednesday my mom fell from her bed and my father and I had a very difficult time getting her off the floor.  We called an ambulance to take her to the ER, thinking it was a medication reaction, but it turned out to be something much simpler, yet at the same time much worse.  Mom spend the last week and more on several different wards at the hospital before quietly passing on yesterday.  I've been a complete wreck (I'm the youngest, and for the last year I've been the one taking care of her), and didn't think it would ever stop hurting.  It still hurts, it hurts so much I can hardly stand it, but this morning I woke up feeling a sense of calm for a few minutes.  It was a very strange feeling, but I think I kinda like it.  I know I'm going to miss her.  She and I texted almost constantly, and there have already been several instance today alone that I have wanted to text her something funny that I saw or that happened.  This is going to be very difficult, but this morning it feels like it may be ever so slightly more bearable.  I think it hit me so hard because I was so certain she was going to get better.  She would never be 100%, she had too many medical ailments for that, but at least back to where she was before all this.  I'm not looking forward to the next few days/ weeks/ months/ years, but I've been told it gets better/ easier, so I really hope that's true.  I guess I'm just still in shock...